Imagine this. In your hand is a very precious creation, so fragile, so valuable that if you keep on holding, it would either stay or fall apart. But you loved this creature so much, so much that letting it go would be like letting go of your life as well. So much that sometimes you wished it would be there forever. So much that you tend to be selfish at times so as you could make it stay for as long as you like.
Don't we all wish something "so good" could be forever? Don't we all hope that happiness is there to stay?
There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone "so nice" and "almost perfect" and we just find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that person (sometimes without even realizing it). This feeling soon become a part of our everyday lives and eventually guzzles our thoughts and actions to the extent that we tagged it as one of those "too good to be true" thing.
The sad part there is when we begin to realize that, this particular person feels totally nothing but friendship. A "thing" that would be forever a "thing" nothing more, nothing less... just a thing! You're just a friend, and that's the fact! Then in our desperate attempt to get closer (or at least be noticed), our efforts are still futile and we end up sorry for ourselves.
One person said, never ever let your heart run your life, as much as you can, always be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Try to listen not merely on what your feelings is invoking on you as a person but more importantly listen to reason as well.
Letting go of someone doesn't necessarily mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back. Letting go is not just setting the otherperson free (in the real sense of it), but it is also setting yourself free from all animosity, revulsion, and resentment that was long kept in your heart. You have to let go because the bitterness often puts away the strengths and weakens the littlest hope, making our lives more miserable than ever. Worst, presenting yourself as the "most affected one" sets the nastiest impression of all time--whatta a loser!
The trick there is...always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow.
If you lose love that doesn't mean that you failed inlove...right? Just regard it as another mismatch of heaven! Well, you can cry of course, or whine or shout (growl even) if you have to, but make sure that after those outbursts you have washed away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you (easy said than done I know!).
We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today. You really don't have to forget someone you love ('cause it's hard).
What we need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for what we have become. I think it's better that we give off that dedication and love to someone more deserving. Hmmm..."Who could it be" is the next interesting question to ponder.
Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you. And when it does, pray hard that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.
so i guess this it.. the questions are answered. thats all what ive been waiting for to finally let go of the sweetest person i know.. i did my part thats it.. there's no more of me to offer, i maybe hurt now because i lost him but cummon' is it really my lost? duh!!! hehe.. now im freeing my heart from the hurt and pain that i am feeling for the past months.. hmm letting go and acceptance is my main focus ryt now.. wut else? i've met someone hmm someone who really caught my attention.. we do txt and call each other and finally, i think im beggining to fall again.. welpz.. i think im ready to love again? why not? i deserve to be happy right?.. peaceout
I like you so much But why is it that when You lock eyes into mine Your eyes kill me and your smile Is a stab in the back That hurts so much Because you are what I desire and yet You are impossible for me
It hurts so much to like you like this Whenever I see you and ignore me and just pass me by Like a bird just fly's by
Your cold shoulder kills me Day by day The wounds that you've caused Never go away At least until you go away You say "HI" and smile at me Is all this a fake? or is it compassion?
It hurts so much To find out that you've been Talking to someone else From that day All I do is cry Cry myself to sleep
Sometimes I think I hate you Sometimes I think I love you But most of the time I'm confused This is not how I want to live my life I want to be able to see Through the rain again But then again Why do I torture myself With your memories all over again.
Slipping away . . .
your slipping away from me your becoming a distant memory
I remember that day you started slipping away It gets worse and worse every day
I can feel you slipping I feel it happening now I can not see it but I feel it so I ask myself " How ? "
Why are you slipping slipping in to space I just pray to god I never forget your face
You mean to me the world and so much more I constantly ask myself without you what is it I am living for ?
I cannot forget how it was Why is it your slipping away when not everyone does ?
Why did you have to leave Why are you going away Why are you slipping more and more each day
Why cant you stay why are you so farly slipping away
But I guess It's to late I guess your gone So I guess youre slipping away is this how I am going to go on
i juz got home.. hayyy never have i imagine to take care of my niece.. its not dat i hate kids or sumting.. i juz have this weird feeling wid my so called "pamangkin". she gets all of the attention that was supposed to be mine.. grr anyways, shes juz a kid so why should i be mad at her right? anyways, i woke up late.. i went out with my friends.. how i miss all of them.. i juz ,miss hanging around with them.. we went to the mall.. go road tripping, and went to nikay's houz.. hmm after that? i went home wrote an entry to my diary.. think of him and sleep..
i really hate this feeling that i have.. its like im trying to move on.. trying to forget the past, trying to live alone.. and trying to be happy.. but then i still end up longing and missing him.. God! please do help me.. im really confused right now.. its like i wanna forget him and hate him but still i cant.. fate always find its way to get him near me.. ive tried not to go out so dat i wont see him but still theres this fate that keeps on reminding me things about him.. at this moment im really upset.. i dont know wut to do for me to move on.. for me to let his memories go.. God knows ive tried my best to forget each and evry thing that we spent together.. but i guess its not yet enough..
If only i have the guts to ask him for another chance.. if onli i can turn back time.. if only hes mine.. maybe im not like this.. i may look like im happy and contented right now but evrytym im alone loneliness and bitterness comes in..
I really wanna talk to him, to be with him.. but how? what will i do for him to forgive me? HELPPPPPPPPP!
Single means you have the time to grow and be the person you want to be. Single gives you space to grow.
Sometimes, it is harder to grow when you are too close to someone.
Trees are planted far apart so they can spread their branches and become strong as they mature.
Single means learning to live by yourself. However, that is no more difficult than learning to live with somebody else.
Single means freedom.
You are free to spend a week's vacation on the beach, to take computer courses, to work late on an interesting project, to spend the day in bed with a good book or simply with a person who has read one.
Single means learning not to need a man/woman to make your life meaningful but learning to live with a man/woman because you want to be with him/her.
Single means that sometimes you will wonder why you will bite your lip and feel wistful and wonder if being in a relationship with someone is better.
Ironically, yet quite happily, single is feeling good about being in control of your life.
It is liking and respecting who you are and why you are.
Single is realizing that being in a relationship is not necessarily better, it is merely different.
Single means that there could be something wonderful around the corner and you can take advantage of it.
*:(letting go of a person u've just learned to love
:(reminiscing the good times u shared together
:(shielding ur heart to love somebody
*:(trying to hide what u really feel
*:(trying to hide the tears that involuntarily fall from ur eyes
*:(loving a person too much
:(having the right love at the wrong time
*:(taking the risk to fall in love again
:(hiding ur relationship from someone else
:(controlling ur feelings to avoid hurting a friend
*********:(thinking of his every waking and sleeping moment knowing all the while that he never even thinks a single thought of you...
************:(letting go, because everytime you see the person,you only fall deeper
*:(holding back only to find out when it's too late,you both felt the same way, but were only scared to lose each other so much that you didn't let the feelings out
*:(falling inlove with someone you didnt mean to fall inlove with
*:(finding the perfect guy...with only one prob....he doesnt love you...
:(helping the one you love court your friend
*:(seeing the one you love crying for someone else
*********:(the waiting also hurts like hell
:(having to hear "... I've met someone"
************************* ************************ ********* *:(agreeing to his wish to 'just be friends'.
:(asking his freedom back bcoz 'he'd be happier with her'
************************* ************************ ********* ******:(asking u to 'forget that everything happened'and be 'normal' friends again.
:(hearing that u're treated as a lil sis (ouch!)
:(sharing his future plans for the girl with you.
:(u stopped being friends bcoz his gf asked him to.
:(being denied in front of people.
:(telling u lies where he'd been when actually, he is with a 'new friend' or an 'old flame' (whew!)
:(he told u he'd be leaving u to return to his ex (d one he left 4 u!)
:(breaking someone's heart
:(fighting for that one thing that would make you happy
:(that is, holding on to a person who can not guarantee you his commitment unless he fix himself...then, you are left hanging for the moment...then he says, time will tell... but you still decided to hope in him and trust him
********RETENDING you're OK when inside you're dying...
*************:(PRETENDING to be strong.... and RECOGNIZING your weakness
****************:(lying in bed each night, thinking of that special person you can never have...
:(being with someone you can't actually love...
***:(pretending you don't love a person whom you actually love...
*:(being in love...
:(letting go even if you really don't want to... having no right to say you are hurting because it was your decision
:(seeing the person you love hurt because of you...and not being able to help that person...
******:(having the courage to say I LOVE YOU to the person you love and finding out afterwards that things will never be the same again when he/she doesnt treat you with the same closeness as before
:(having to face the fact that someone is capable of completely destroying the wall that you have set for yourself, leaving you weak and vulnerable
:(admitting that you love someone despite his imperfections
:(finding out that the more you try to hate him, the more you end up loving him, perhaps even more than before
:(realizing how stupid your mistakes were that led to your break-up
:(Sharing the one you love with SOMEBODY else....."
:(making a promise....and realizing that when the time has come for that promise to be delivered....the commitment is no longer there...
:(the hardest thing about love - believing it exists.
After you've been hurt... ...learn to forgive ...learn to trust and love again
well its my last day of school today.. as I expected it went out as d happiest day this sem.. after our finals my classmates quickly grab their fone and took us pictures.. after posing and smiling we went to Antipolo where my classmate Nancy live.. we just yah know go bonding the whole day.. eating.. and fooling around.. well i really do miss all of them right now.. i wont be able to see them as often as i do coz its aready our sem break starting tomorrow.. welpz anyways,but still theres things dat i like when having this sem break thing like I can go out as much as I want.. no boring lectures, Terror teacher, annoying classmates, thick books to read, Graded Recitations..BoArd Works etc.. whew! and lastly i can sleep the whole day.. hehe
I looked at him for the first time, and not noticing I would fall in love with him I looked away. I now sit at home only thinking about him. & nbsp; &n bsp; &nb sp; &nbs p; ; & nbsp; &n bsp; Why is it that I can't let him go? I know realize he is never coming back, and begin to cry. He was my first, my first at so many things. But the one thing I will always remember, is that he was my first "True Love." I did things not thinking of the outcome, and now I am left home all alone. I just can't let him go. Why is it that he can act like nothing is wrong, and say "I Love You?" Does it even mean anything? If he read this, would he show this to all of his friends? I just don't know anymore! All I know is that I love a him. and for that reason...... "I Can't Let Him Go"
Im soooo happy today ahihohiho.. welpz many things happened yesterday and i really cant believe it myself.. im so...... ahhmmmm happy.. thats it.. hehe so damn happy!! :D i wish this will be the start of evrything hehe..
i juz got done with my class.. and grrr it rilly gets into my nerves everytime i see my math professor its like yah know! shes there and waiting for me to be called on her so called board work.. aww this is really hard coz im really lazy solving math equations, problems etc. anyways, thank God coz i passed it, now the only problem is my final examination which is on Wednesday Damn! i dunno if i'll be able to pass the subject.. whew! Good thing there's Louie who never fails 2 teach me evrything about the subject..
well.. right now.. im bored.. im confused as usual for i did remember someone.. someone i thought ive forgotten already.. but obviously, i dont... i dunno whats happening to me.. it was like i dont know myself anymore, i dunno wuts the purpose of thinking of him.. i dunno why I still keep on knowing how he is..i dunno.. i told myself not to care about him again, not to bother ask anything about him, not to think of him.. not to see him again.. but fate did a way, he did let me see him again.. all for unknown reason i guess.. 4 me to be confused again??.. 4 me 2 accept and show wut i really feel??.. or 4 me 2 face my fears..
i dont know where my place is.. or if i still stand a chance.. i dunno if he still cares about what i feel or if he will still listen to evrything that i wanna say.. i really dont know what to do.. what am i gonna do 4 him 2 forgive me.. 4 me to pruv him dat ill do anything just 4 him.. just to win him back..
its easy to say dat i did forget evryting that happened.. dat i dont care anymore but whenever im alone in my room and thoughts of us pops in my mind i cant help but bring back the past that once we cherished.. i miss ur eyes dat i luv 2 look at, ur corny jokes, d way u eat, d way u care, ur touch, ur embrace, ur kisses, evrything about u..
Now, nothings new.. where still ignoring each other as if we never knew each other, as if we never loved each other.. u just didnt know how painful it is 4 me to pretend dat im ok.. 2 pretend dat i dont luv u anymore.. but i do.. and i still do.. i luv u so much dat i cant bare 2 be with other guy except u.. its only u dat i wanna spend my life with.. its u dat i luv and only u will i love 4ever..
I wish you knew, that I cry myself to sleep, my pillows wet from teardrops. I wish you knew, that I think about you every day.You just don't know how much you are on my mind.
I wish you knew, how much you meant to me. One of my biggest regrets is not telling you how special you were to me. Someone asked me if I told you how much you meant to me. My reply was "He knew, I didn't have to tell him." But there's a difference between telling you and assuming you knew. How stupid I was not to tell you that you were my world. I wish you knew, I adored everything about you. I wish you knew, exactly how much I miss you.I wish I knew that you missed me too. I wish you knew, that I had never felt this way before. I wish you knew, how sad I am, and how much you hurt me. But you'll never know now. I wish you knew all the pain you put me through. It hurts so bad.
I wish you knew so many things I hadn't told you, I wish I could turn back time and relive this part of my life. But wishing only goes so far.
I wish I knew that I'd love again. But that doubt keeps me coming back to you.
No one knows just how much my heart continually bleeds.
All from a wound so long suppressed.
A deathly gash that shall forever claim the heart in my chest.
I wish this pain that I feel was upon my skin, at least I could deal with it, at least the scars would have..healed.
But no such luck for me, I have to suffer such a great pain, that you wouldn't wish on even your worst enemy.
No one will ever truly see how these scars never shall heal.
No one sees...that this is all I will ever truly feel.
But it's kind of a relief, that none of you get it.
Makes it easier to accept my sealed fate.
Makes it just a little easier for me to deal with the bloody wound within my chest, forever claiming my heart, never letting it have peace, never letting it rest.
Helps me accept the fact that I will soon be claimed by death
Having A hard time knowing where my place is? I dunno if its right to fight for someone you love but I myself never did see him fight for his love for me.. i wanna talk to him but hes getting rid off me.. i know that he still love me but why is he doing this? im really suffering from what hes showing me right now.. it hurts to know that we love each other but we simply cant be together.. i guess i still have to wait for a?? when a yr?? aww c'mon
I don't know what you are doing in your life How about now? Do you have the time?
You taught me what it was to love And I thank you for that But sometimes just a lesson learned isn't enough
And I know it might not work out anymore But it's worth a shot C'mon we've done it before
I don't know what you're doing now But all I can do is sit around
And pretend you don't exist Just wipe you off my list
You may be gone to me But I know you're still there It hurts me the most Cause I know you didn't care
But I know you will see That I love you And you don't love me
What are you doing now? How's your life going? Why don't you call me anymore? What are you dong in your life?
What are you doing? I need to know Just what you want from me You may not know
But it seems That you're jealous of him And I know you are But still I can't let go of you And I know I need you
I know your life is probably hectic Without me And I know I'm just probably one less Girl you have to impress
But the truth is I didn't want you to be Anyone else but yourself Around me
And the truth is I can't live without you And it hurts me to know you didn't care
How's your life going What's new with you? Are you still missing me Like I miss you too?
How's you life going? I need you too tell me How's your life going without me?
How are you surviving without the key.. To my heart I know some day I will have to go But does it have to be right now?
as Im writing this poem there's many things that I was thinking.. will i still hold on and wait or i just have to let go of this feeling.. im really confused.. i dunno where im gathering my strength to hold on from.. well i guess when u really luv sum1 you dont care even if it means sacrifes, suffering and taking risks...
This is what I feel. I think it needs to be said The truth about my past plays over in my head I never thought my heart could ever feel this pain I never though that love could drive a man insane
I held on forever, but no one really cared Held on to feelings, that wasn't even there Things go wrong in life and you don't know what to do But my life made a change on the day that I met you
Things are now going back to what they were before Cause I found the answer to what I've been looking for It's not about arguing and fighting, being right or wrong It's about friendship and love, respect and being strong
Now that you're here, I'll cherish each moment to the end Cherish the first kiss when you became more than a friend When we talked about the stars, I knew we'd be together And just like an endless sky, a new love could last forever
I won't forget the time when you whispered in my ear goodnight My heart is counting every minute ‘till I can hold you tight Every moment you're not here, makes me think of what to do So I wont lose what my soul, has grown to feel for you
This is my confession, but I feel that there's more to be done To prove my heart is true and you'll always be number one I'm sorry I can't describe exactly what I'm trying to say But for now my simple poem will help show you the way
----- this is much easier 4 me.. confessing here.. atleast it lessens the pain that im feeling.. i did this poem last 18th 4 dat day its already a yr since we partways.. i miss him so much.. and until now i still and do love him so much..
hey ya! im just new here.. welpz umm its my first time to do a blogsite so if it wont come out as pretty as others sites are im sorry.. just wait for me to learn about html stuff lik dat and i'll fix my site :D peace out.. anyways, this blog means a lot to me.. it contains all the poems, letters, and journals about a guy who really means a lot to me.. he may not know that i have a site like this but in time i'll show him this for i cant hide what im feeling forever.. this means a lot to me so thats it 4 now chow!
